Rather presumptuously mis-categorised under “Psychology”, I was wondering whether I really mean what I write? Or to turn it round another way, do I write what I mean?
Am I using my blog as a carnival mask? If so why? What would I hope to achieve by that? Why would I need to make myself out to be other than as I am?
Personality, the human psyche is a complex, multi-faceted phenomena. We are an emergent product of the laws of the nature but we do not know who are what we are, even after several hundred years of the Enlightenment. Or rather we do not understand “consciousness”.
To mis-quote Heraclitus “we never inhabit the same body twice”. It is (apparently) scientific fact that every atom in our body changes over seven years cycles, so is it even possible to know ourselves if we are always changing?
My belief is that our blueprint does not change much. As our body is renewed and changes it atoms, the blueprint it uses remains much the same.
As I have argued elsewhere, it seems to me that the bedrock of our personality stays with us, even if it is shaped and moulded by the experiences of our life. We were born with it. It is our genetic inheritance.
So I ought to be able to answer the question: “do I mean what I write?” since I have had over 60 years to come to know myself and to analyse my behaviour.
My answer is “yes I do”. And yes, I write what I mean. I do not wear a dissembling mask, I am not trying to disguise myself, fool my readers.
In general then, I do not try to hide too much, although I may sometimes be more polite than I feel. Basically, I want to be left alone.
I don’t want some fool politician shoving “multiculturalism” and “gender awareness” down my throat (equally I have no problem, let alone hatred for other races and cultures).
I don’t like the human species all that much, and have a particular distaste for business, “businessmen” and salesmen all of which and whom I find grubby and venal.
And yes, I do detest poverty, violence and greed and wish the world were a better place. Sadly I have never done anything to make it so. Maybe my blog is a very small step in that direction.