Tag: Psilocybin

  • Original thinking or garbled trope?

    Original thinking or garbled trope?

    I am interested in expressing my own thoughts and reading the original thoughts of others. But too often writers feel obliged to offer up a digest or synthesis of what they have read rather than contributing anything new or original.

    I am well aware that my own thoughts have been deeply informed by others. I am often unconscious of that fact when expressing myself. Yet I try to voice feelings and opinions which are genuinely my own.

    What use if I merely quote Liebnitz or any of my other favorites? Better that than Trump or any of the other boorish ignoramuses of our time, but less of a contribution to society than something fresh.

    It is far from easy to dig deep into one’s psyche and to offer anything new. Indeed, if you were to believe Ecclesiastes, you would come to the conclusion that there is nothing new.

    And yet there assuredly is and from time to time a philosophy or view will pop out which is genuinely and alarmingly fresh.

    Often as not the new will usher in something every bit as dystopian as the new of old, but just occasionally something genuinely useful and peaceful but also revolutionary may emerge.

    Or that is my hope. I was reading through blogs on counter culture this morning. Whatever that expression means. I often consider anarchy, socialism, religious thought and even occasionally conventional centrist politics.  Without much satisfaction.

    There must be some good to be had somewhere. This morning I was reading an article from Sue Stevenson at Discombobula.

    Whether she was joking or not, she suggested that politicians in Australia be served magic mushrooms on toast.

    Researchers announced a few years ago that the psilocybin in magic mushrooms has the ability to foster “sustained changes in outlook and political perspective” for people suffering depression. Even better, those changes are “in the direction of increased nature relatedness and decreased authoritarianism.”

    Now there is an original thought, although I imagine a few of the Flower Power mob back in the 60’s felt much the same way. Which, according to lore, was why psychedelics were banned back in the day. Some say because the newly awakened young were refusing to enlist for the Vietnam war following their psychedelic enlightenment.

    But wait. Do not pass go, do not shut me down in fury and derision. For our Sue has a serious point whether she meant it or not.

    Let me explain. We are the slaves of our Darwinian origins, our evolution. Even the mildest of us will fight tooth and nail for our own survival, when push comes to shove.  We will trample over people on our way to the lifeboats on the Titanic, we will kill and maim and abuse any who stand in our way.

    I am unable to suppress often felt irritation over all manner of things. Which is all very well when I am locked away in my hermetic recreation of Skellig Michael. Faced more closely with my fellow man, I am prone to behave less charitably than I would like. And I am no Ghengis Khan, no Donald Trump. I have no desire to dominate or conquer. I just want to be left alone, as Garbo is reputed to have said.

    My point is that we need to recreate ourselves.  We need to escape from our origins or no amount of good thought or deed will make for a better or kinder world.

    We have had good religious thought for as long as man has existed and when you strip away the claptrap of belief, much of it has something useful to say about how to live in peace with each other.

    But we can not. We did not evolve to live in peace with each other or our planet. We were bred, like the rest of the animal kingdom, for survival – ours – at the expense of everybody else’s.

    And so back to Sue.

    The out of the box, the unusual, the un-thought of.  That is what interests me. Re-engineering our genome, altering our emotions for the better. Increasing our good qualia and reducing our bad.

    Good on you Sue. I agree with you.

     

  • I know that my Redeemer Liveth

    I know that my Redeemer Liveth

    Success in seeking the Absolute may simply be a matter of altering our minds chemically.

    I’m sorry to disappoint Job and I can not see Handel writing an oratorio about mind altering drugs but that is my belief.

    It is a belief shared by some eminent philosophers and does not represent the mere churning of a mind in chaos.

    Our small minds evolved to seek survival at any cost. Not happiness or knowledge in general.  If we have to kill our neighbor and eat him (literally in some benighted parts of the world) then that is what we will do.  In the West we achieve these aims through capitalism. In less “civilized” parts of the world physical violence still reigns supreme as it does in the animal kingdom at large.

    And yet those blessed with the luxury of reflection (and the time to reflect) may come to the conclusion that it need not always be so.

    In essence it seems that the universe is great simplicity cloaked in overwhelming complexity.  From the vibrations of infinitesimally small one dimensional strings there arises all that we see around us.

    Ourselves included.

    Under the influence of half a teaspoon full of psilocybe cubensis I have found truth in the words of Julian of Norwich.

    The petty concerns of humanity fall away and you can see your way to understanding what the mystics describe. Most people restrict themselves to reading about contentment or the sublime. Reading the words of others is, as the Buddhists would have it, a mere finger pointing to the moon.

    To witness the sublime itself is of far greater value.  No-one should seek to be a junkie. To zone out on heroin or cannabis. Or to psyche themselves up for a day in the urban jungle with cocaine.

    But we should learn that the troubled mind is a mind that is not well.  And we should accept that it need not always be so. Perhaps consciousness is designed to dig its bearers out of the mud.

    In the more likely event that no one designed consciousness, that there is no creator, then we must create ourselves.

    We do not need to live like pigs or jackals. We do not need to suffer. We do not need competition, aggression and violence.

    What we do need is to search, to experiment. Without fear of reprisal and without cease. Peace is to quiet the mind, to quell the never ending stream of pointless thoughts and worries. To see through destructive emotions, to overcome fear and greed.

    My normal state of mind is not “necessary”. It is not useful or kind or nice. To me or to anybody around me.

    I will change. I will become better, kinder, more peaceful. Not just today or yesterday but for all days to come.  I live in the physical world and I need to recognize that I need to take physical actions to achieve my objective.

    I do not shirk from the task and I do not hesitate to step outside the bounds of convention to achieve this.  Remember Edward Jenner, the founder of vaccinology in the West.  Avoid potential harm to others (unlike Jenner) but do not seek to avoid experimentation on yourself if you seek “Truth”.

    If you wish to see the universe as it really is you need to stray from the prison cell in which you have incarcerated yourself.

  • Norman Nembutal

    Norman Nembutal

    For the ever mercurial Alfred the sun did not rise yesterday. After a splendid microdosed  Sunday,  he woke with a bump on Monday morning.  Right from the off, he knew it was going to be a bad day.  A very bad day.

    There is no point whatsoever reading about Alfred’s boring and average existence if he reports the good without the bad.   And Monday was bad.  And for no particular external reason. He has been working away on some algorithms for a New York Hedge Fund and  usually  this arcane process gives him much pleasure.  Not so yesterday.

    As so often yesterday was a day in which Alfred could see no good and the world seemed a pointless grind.  There was no cause other than the physiological. Admittedly, he had been dreading the task of returning his tax papers to his accountant but yesterday this long delayed task caused almost blind panic once Alfred had sat himself down to glance yet again at his neglected paperwork.

    As usual in such situations Alfred yearned to be far from civilization, off grid.  Far from greedy officials and governments who in any event excrete ones meager offerings down the drain of waste and corruption.

    Tempted to take another dose of magic mushrooms, he had the good sense to hold off and to suffer as so often through a day of serious darkness.

    And lo, Tuesday dawned and right from his first stirrings Alfred knew that the day was going to go well.  He was glad he had not succumbed to nembutal or psilocybin the previous day and determined to put off another microdose until the morrow.

    Alfred is determined to shine the light upon this apparent miracle cure and hopes that six months or a year might make every day a good one, microdosed or not.

    Alfred feels physically better without SSRIs although three months of cold turkey was a living hell. He does not wish to tread those paths again  nor revert to the cold embrace of Eli Lily.

    The true test for psilocybin will be whether it manages to salve Alfred’s tortured pysche on a permanent basis.  Supposedly (and indeed in testing illuminated by MRI scans,) the drug connects neural pathways in unusual ways and increases the number of those connections.  Perhaps continued or permanent microdosing will be necessary to maintain that increased connectivity. Perhaps six months or a year down the line every day will be filled with good things. Perhaps not.

    No doubt Alfred will keep us informed of his progress.